Wednesday, 31 May 2017

My Current Skincare Routine

As much as I love makeup, I'm also quite the skincare fanatic as well!

Monday, 29 May 2017

Mental Health Mondays: Living With Depression

Happy mental health awareness month! Well....kind of ironic because me and 'happy' don't get on so well. My name is Chloe, I'm 18, and I have depression and anxiety. Lucy asked me to do a post for her series this month and of course I said yes because it's just so important to break the stigma surrounding mental health and make sure people know they're not alone. 


Sunday, 28 May 2017

A Few Tips To Help Grow Your Blog

A nice unrelated photo of cakes above, but who doesn't love cake?!

Friday, 26 May 2017

Teeth Whitening With Janina

Teeth whitening is something I've been contemplating doing for a while now, but have never known where to start with all these different products on the market!


Wednesday, 24 May 2017

Fathers Day Gift Guide With TJ Hughes

Don't panic, you haven't forgotten Fathers day haha! We're still a couple of weeks away, but better to be organised right?!


Monday, 22 May 2017

Mental Health Mondays: Dealing With BPD


How do you describe what life is like with Borderline Personality Disorder in one post? It’s going to be tricky but let’s give it a go.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a complex mental health condition that often begins in adolescence and continues into adulthood. To put it simply, BPD is a disorder where your mood can be so unstable that it can fluctuate from feeling suicidal to feeling euphoric in a matter of hours. The way you perceive the world is very different from other individuals, and everything appears to be so much more intense. Many people with the condition, including myself, have other mental health conditions too and self-harm is a common symptom.

What’s my story then? It’s difficult to write about, but it’s vital people share their experiences of mental health conditions so other people can understand what life is truly like for us and as a result, learn how to effectively support us. 

It was August 2015. My moods had become more and more volatile. I was filled with rage on a daily basis, to the extent where I would break objects, shout vile things at my loved ones, and yet I was petrified of anyone leaving me and would do anything I could to prevent this from happening (a common behaviour for individuals with BPD). I had not yet been diagnosed with the condition. I was driving erratically, putting myself in danger, and self-harming on a regular basis. All I wanted to do was to die, to end the years of torment I had gone through with my mental health conditions. I walked to a train track, and waited for the darkness to succumb to me. 

When I was found, the police were called and I was placed under a section. It wasn’t until I had been in a psychiatric hospital on two separate occasions that I was diagnosed with BPD. Was I relieved? Partly – I had an explanation as to why I felt the way I did, a reason as to why I felt everything so much. Why I was in so much pain. But it was then that my journey began. Since August 2015, I have been hospitalised on five separate occasions. Most of them I was placed under section. It never gets any easier. It is always so scary, difficult, tiring, lonely. 

Life with BPD is exhausting. You never know what frame of mind you will wake up in from one day to the next. Some days, it’s like every fibre of my being is energised and I want to do everything. I talk quicker, move faster, seem more productive. Other days I can’t get out of bed. I can’t eat, sleep, think and I don’t want to talk to anyone. I self-harm to feel something, or sometimes to punish myself. 

I’ll be brutally honest – sometimes I am scared of myself. Scared of how I’ll react in a certain situation. Scared of if today I will make an attempt on my life. Scared of if I will put my loved ones through more underserving pain. I am reminded every single day in one way or another about my stays in hospital, the battles I’ve faced. 

Another part of BPD is a lack of self-esteem and an understanding of who you fundamentally are. I have changed jobs so many times. Gone to university, dropped out, gone back, dropped out. I have no idea where to go in life. I hate the way I look, and will sometimes restrict what I eat just to gain some control. I feel like I don’t fit in this world, like I am the ‘odd one out’ even though so many people live with this illness. 

Fortunately, I had a massive life change that has hopefully put me on the right track for recovery. I moved from Norfolk, England to the Scottish Highlands last year to live with my mum who has held my hand through every part of my journey. I found an amazing GP and a brilliant Community Mental Health Team. I’m now half way through a therapy programme called STEPPS (find out more at and I’m learning new techniques to help me cope. I’ve also met a man who is so wonderful, patient and caring and means the world to me. 

Whilst some may argue with this, I believe that having BPD has actually given me some positive things too. Feeling everything so much means I also get to experience the deepest kind of love for those around me. I marvel at the small things – a good cup of coffee, a beautiful scenery. It has allowed me to meet an online mental health community which has helped make me feel less alone. 

I don’t know what the future holds for me. I have hopes, dreams, ambitions, but whether I will be able to achieve them or not is another thing entirely. I have seen that recovery is possible, and at the very least I can learn to live alongside my illnesses and not let them live my life for me. I want marriage, children, a good career, all that stuff. I will work hard to have these things whilst remembering to also take one day at a time. 

If you have BPD, remember you are not alone, that there is hope and there is so much help out there. Sometimes it’s trial and error. I’m often changing medications, trying new coping strategies, and some will work and some won’t and we have to learn to accept that that is okay. It doesn’t mean it’s the end of the road for us. We must talk about BPD. We must do further research. We must get people to understand. We need to stop the stigma. If we all stand together, raise each other up and stand by one another when we feel we can’t manage, then together we can make a difference.

This was a post from Kimberley, you can follow her on Twitter and Instagram by clicking the links. Thanks Kimberley!

Sunday, 21 May 2017

2017 General Election From A First Time Voter Perspective

Without a shadow of a doubt, you will know that on June 8th, you will be expected to cast your vote as to who will run our country for the next 5 years.

Friday, 19 May 2017

Everyday Jewellery Pieces

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Jewellery was never my thing until a couple of years ago, when I realised dainty pieces were my thang!

Wednesday, 17 May 2017

Top 3 Nude Liquid Lipsticks

Its official, I'm obsessed with nude lipsticks!


Monday, 15 May 2017

Mental Health Mondays: Me And My OCD

I'm Nicole, and I have obsessive compulsive disorder, more commonly known as OCD. I also suffer from health anxiety, Emetophobia (which is a severe fear of being sick) panic attacks, EDNOS and depression. However, today I'm going to be sharing my experience of suffering from OCD for Lucy’s ‘Mental health Mondays’ to celebrate mental health awareness month.


Sunday, 14 May 2017

Palettes Perfect For Blue Eyes

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As someone with blue (basically grey) eyes, I thought I'd share a few of my favourite palettes that really accentuate that blueness!


Friday, 12 May 2017

Indy Luxe Pink Pearlescent Unicorn Makeup Brush Set

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Look how beautiful these brushes are, have you ever seen something so pretty? Because I know I haven't!

Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Rose Gold Beauty Picks

Rose gold has taken the world by storm, and its especially prominent in the blogosphere!

Monday, 8 May 2017

Mental Health Mondays: A Confused Mindset & Paranoia

I’m a lucky person, I have a home with a family, we have laughs and there’s always food on the table and a bed for me to lay in. 

Many people would describe me as a funny, bubbly, easy going person. This is true I love nothing more than to be kind to people, be silly and laugh my head off. I spend a lot of my life trying to make other people feel comfortable being themselves, that’s how I role. Man how I wish I could do that myself. I enjoy to challenge myself, Reading festival last year was the best thing ever, I was told not to go in big crowds and mosh (it’s a bit of a trigger for me) but I pushed my boundaries and had the best time of my life!

I’m one of those suffer in silence kind of people, the “save your tears for the pillow” type. I choose to keep my mental state very private…it just makes me feel stronger that no one knows. But, it’s really because I’m embarrassed by it. I’m scared it’ll make me lose my friends and even my closest relationships, sometimes I think it’d be much easier to have a broken leg or something…at least it’s not as scary to explain or for other people to understand! 

It all started for me when I was about 5 years old, my parents begun to realise I got worried and worked up over the smallest things (I won’t bore you with the details). But after my mums concern I saw someone and was diagnosed with anxiety. I learned ways to suppress the nerves; one of the best tips I was given, was to take a breather if I got extremely nervous, step back and list the reasons why I was worried. Then slowly eliminate them by realising it wasn’t going to be that bad. Don’t get me wrong its still there, but its helped and I’m grateful for that. 

I am now 18 and have developed signs of paranoia and body dysmorphia, these have developed in the last 2 years. I know what you’re thinking, oh typical she hates how she looks. But that’s the issue, I believe whoever I tell isn’t going to take it seriously and think I’m a vain horrible person when I’m nothing of the sort. I avoid mirrors, I constantly think something needs to be fixed. It’s hard, I worry I’m going to lose my relationships because I always think they could do better. There are some route causes to these problems including an ex, other people, personal problems and being surrounded by people I think are amazing, beautiful and 100x better than me (but again I’m not gonna bore ya it’s looonnnngggg). But hey it ain’t all bad! Last year I took up photography, this is perfect for me, I’ve found something I don’t have to be in front for the camera for and my work can speak for me. I tend to joke around about my issues, making light of things makes me feel better. The main thing to remember is you’re not alone. 

Whilst being at college I’ve met this insane girl (the one and only blogger herself). Having this person that gets me is the best thing that’s happened to me, talking to people is good but having someone you know will be there no matter what is what makes ME happy. It’s still tough, I still struggle, but personally having loving people around me and a hobby I am proud of, makes me feel good! Lots of people tell you NOT to suffer in silence but I think you should do what makes YOU feel strong, whether that’s talking it out or keeping it to yourself, you do you. Remember you are you and that’s the best you can be.

This was a post from one of my closest friends Marcie, so thank you so much to her for doing this for 'Mental Health Mondays'. You can follow Marcie on Instagram here. She also took this stunning photo as well, I mean how talented is she?!

Sunday, 7 May 2017

Colourpop Haul

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You have no idea how excited I am to be sitting and writing this post!


Friday, 5 May 2017

5 Throwback Makeup Products

I was going through my makeup collection the other day, and spotted an old MAC foundation that I haven't used for ages and it got me looking for more old school products I haven't used in a while!

Wednesday, 3 May 2017

Well & Truly Snacks

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If you know me, you would know I am the snack queen. Snacks are my fave, and these are no exception!

Savoury or sweet, I just love to snack, its even better when they're actually a lil bit healthier than your normal crisps or chocolate. Well & Truly make snacks that little bit healthier, by not using any additives, preservatives or colours. Also theres no genetically modified food, so you can be sure that what you're eating is okay for ya body!

So, I was kindly sent their Crunchy Cheese Sticks* and Gluten Free Tortilla Chips* to try out. I was so excited by the crunchy cheese sticks because I am quite the cheese fanatic. These were the ones I opened straight away of course, because I couldn't wait. If any of you remember having 'Nik Nak' crisps as a kid, they're the same shape as those, they're a nobbly kinda shape (lol). But I cannot tell you how good these taste, I mean if you love cheese like me, then these won't disappoint. They're very cheesey and well, highly addictive. Luckily they're not super bad for you, or else I'd be in trouble. They're gluten free as well, so for any gluten intolerant readers, don't worry, you can try them too! 

As for the tortilla chips, well they're just as fabulous. Personally, I could just eat these out of the packet with no dips or anything (and trust me, I do), but having these with some guacamole or salsa dip would be just, well delicious! These are also gluten free, so more accessible to a wider audience, which again is great! They also have 40% less fat than your average tortilla chips, so actually you can feel less guilty when you 'accidentally' end up eating the whole packet in one sitting. 

Well & Truly snacks are available buy from Tesco stores, and only come in at around the £2 mark - not too shabby if you ask me! If you're looking for a tasty, and fairly healthy snack, I would definitely recommend these two!

- Lucy 

Monday, 1 May 2017

Mental Health Monday: Living With Emetophobia

Happy mental health awareness month! To celebrate a whole month dedicated to breaking the stigma around mental health, I've decided to start a mini series for this month only. Welcome to 'Mental Health Monday'. 

Every Monday in May, will be a post all about mental health. Today's one is from me, and my personal experience with emetophobia, something I suffer with every day. However, there will be posts from various people, friends of mine, fellow bloggers, about their mental health experiences. I hope you enjoy this, and I hope it raises a bit more awareness for mental health and the stigma behind it.

So, welcome to my personal experiences. I suffer with anxiety, and a phobia of vomit (emetophobia). My first experience with the fear of sick, was when I was around five years old. My friend said she felt sick, and proceeded to throw up in my house. Even then, as a little girl I felt scared. I cried to my parents once she'd left, I was shaky, and actually showing signs of what I now know is a panic attack. As a child, of course I caught bugs and threw up several times myself. It didn't make me any less scared though. I would always have a shaking fit before being sick, cry and shouting for my parents. 

I don't want this to specifically be a history of my phobia as such, but more what its like living with the immense fear. Imagine having to check dates on all foods before you eat it, if you're eating meat, check its thoroughly cooked, or just avoiding it all together as you don't want to face what could happen if you do eat it. If someone you know/love has a 'bug', avoiding them at all costs. You don't want to catch that. Using hand sanitiser before eating anywhere in public, in fear you've picked something up that might be on your hands. Or maybe its avoiding certain food groups, as you connect them with being sick, or feeling sick.

These are struggles I go through day in day out. Admittedly, I used to be much worse than I am now but still, I always have those stupid thoughts at the back of my head. I won't even take medicine a lot of the time, due to the fact sickness is a side effect. Basically, I'll do anything in my power to avoid it. Even if I'm having a good day, happy, not anxious, these silly little thoughts of sick are lingering at the back of my mind, and they never really go away.

I also suffer with panic disorder, which is linked to the emetophobia. Usually the panic attacks are caused by the emetophobia, so for example, if I feel sick or I've seen/heard someone be sick. Or if I've managed to just wind myself up to the point of panic of course. Which isn't fun. So, its something I suffer with on a day to day basis unfortunately. I do think I've got better in some respects, but I definitely still suffer immensely with the phobia. 

Anyway, if theres anything I've learnt over the past few years is to not give up hope. You will get better, and you will survive. As much as I hate it, and it affects me daily, I know that I'm going to be okay overall. I use apps like 'Calm' to help me out when I'm feeling really bad, and also breathing techniques. Just whatever works for you! Keep positive and never give up.

- Lucy
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